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noooodz [26 Dec 2006|06:59pm] So I started my job at the spa- we have been training- basically my training requires gettin free facials and massages ALL DAY- yeahhh today I gotta lome-lome massage. Are massage therapists supposed to massage your sternum??? hmmmm either way felt good haha I miss breed so much its nuts- we talk everyday- he comes home to make sure his stuff gets packed right the 20th and the 21st- then a couple weeks after that Im visiting him to New Mexico! quite possibly redeeming myself.... hopefully Thanksgiving Im going with my parents to Seatle and Montana! I have never been anywhere cept up the east coast- so im very excited. Things are goin okay i guess- Deanna arrives tomorrow, im so thrilled with this. Took forever for us to be okay, but i can honestly say Im really lucky to have her in my life. Its weird to say, but amazing at the same time. Im totally sincere about her. Its BocoJam So that means Jennas Boyfriend Dennis is coming from NJ- STOKED....also Im seeing MINUS THE BEAR, also MY HALLOWEEN COSTUME IS GONNA BE OFF THE CHAIN! Im gonna look so puerto rican- people aint gonna have shit on me. I love sleeping in the cold, I love jaxxx cuz it actually gets cold, and I love when mom makes Cannolies. yours, carissa 3 comments|post comment

[23 Nov 2006|09:54pm] you cant lie to liars. I should of never gotten ivolved period. vice-versa im sure 1 comment|post comment

gfgf [22 Nov 2006|09:53pm] life has been so goood. no enemies, cept maybe him. but i dont givvvva fuck. im treated with respect everyday! shits reallllll nice. muslim is coming 2morrow brian comes back home to me saturday......he does something to my heart. xo 1 comment|post comment

[12 Nov 2006|12:12am] [ music | Panic ] so lets see.... lots has happend in the past 2 weeks. Mainly ups, no downs. I havnt talked to timothy doherty in awhile/ I made a new myspace/ made it private/ blocked him/ and changed my phone number AGAIN. I really mean it this time. I keep thinking about how aweful shit was around this time last year, and about how much worse it got just by me staying. It sickens me. Or i should just say I sicken myself. Ive spent the past 7 days with some amazing people- I have went out and did something every night! I cant remember the last time I actually had a planned weekend where I just went out with my friends to shoot the shit. Its been AMAZING. I met someone- totally weird- Im really scared about how I feel. I do know Its been awhile since i have felt so good about myself. The compliments, When he pushes my hair outa my eyes, when he can honestly sit there and tell me how proud he is of me, and how worth it i am? Yeah, strange I need someone telling me this shit to build myself back up, but I cant help it. Im loving every minute of it. Im loving every minute of him. I dont know where we are gonna go, which path we will take, but i do know I need more people like him in my life. hes so worth it. every feeling i have running through my body- whether it being weird, or uneasy.... he is just so worth it. Im going to NJ, Philly, and NYC. Goin thursday till next tuesday. Im so excited i wanna piss myself. Im listening to panic, and I love this song lighthouse i can't get these thoughts out of my head i'm gonna shut down i need someone to listen i need a friend by me nothing seeems right when i live my life inside of yesterday have to find the strength to reach for something more to breathe -- to see to feel like living accept -- myself to smile and mean it all the things that i regret come back to me at night demons from my past pull my eyelids open wide i'm screaming for the morning screaming for a change i want the chance to face myself and face a better day ohhh siqqqq new tatt post comment

The queen of Hearts. [02 Nov 2006|11:21pm] you will be mine. oh yes, you will be mine. post comment

[01 Nov 2006|09:50am] ANNNA I LOVE IT. IT IS GREAT. YOU ARE GREAT! thankyou sooo much. xo 1 comment|post comment

[31 Oct 2006|08:52pm] also. THANKS TO ERICA, I AM 1 step closer to getting my boooooob job! 3 comments|post comment

[31 Oct 2006|05:10pm] so lets just express to my 2 friends on lj (cuz no ones added me back yet)how excited i am for NJ/Philly. 2 weeeeeeks! AND how excited i am to get this lighthouse on the inside of my arm "even in my darkest hours" c. post comment

[29 Oct 2006|07:53pm] new lj. lets see how long it takes before he hacks into this one, and erases it.... blah. carissa. p.s. anna, make my lj pretty please? 14 comments|post comment

[22 Sep 2006|09:51pm] life has been so goood. no enemies, cept maybe him. but i dont givvvva fuck. im treated with respect everyday! shits reallllll nice. muslim is coming 2morrow brian comes back home to me saturday......he does something to my heart. xo post comment

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